[Achy Turtle Armor]

I've not had a good day. First I insulted some people on here. Then my husband starts yelling at me about every little thing that I am doing or did. I get all up in my head, crawl in bed and contemplate killing myself. I know that I am not thinking clearly but I don't remember what I'm supposed to do. I'm crying so much I can't breathe very well. The only thing that I think to do is to text my T, " So very depressed. I can't remember how to get out of this. I'm so sorry." He replies, " How did you get in it. Thinking too much. Nothing essentially different out there for sure. Do something!"

So I get out of the house and just start walking. I asked him if I could call him. He calls me. Starts asking me if I need to go to the hospital. I tell him to not ask me that. He wants to know if I am suicidal. I told him that I was thinking about it again but that I keep hearing the things that he tells me when I mention suicide. We talk a little more and I start to calm down. Now I just wish I didn't bother him. I feel stupid.

[glok]

Hello, Achy Turtle Armor. Sorry about your day. For what it is worth, I think you did the right thing calling your therapist. Glad you were able to start calming down.

I wish you well.

[ifst5]

I agree - by talking to your therapist you gradually felt better so that has to count for something! Remember, that's what he's there for Sorry you had a not so good day, doesn't look like you're alone though, seems to be a fair bit of that here today

Hugs for all of us