[widgets]

Been working in My job for 2 years and 8 months and living in my house for 1 year and 2 months...

Started with depression then this overwhelming feeling that I can no longer 'do,' my life.

Then now it's a complete desire for total change... I want to change myself, my look, my career, my home l, friends and hobbies.

I really don't see that I'll ever fit back into my life again. At the moment I am avoiding it, staying away from home and not going to work...

It's like an oncoming train. No point fighting it I suppose

[waggiedog]

Hello there dear Widgets. Glad to see that you have posted, obviously things are getting to be hard going. This is exactly when we should be contacting Psych Central or any place that you could receive help. All of the things you mentioned are of course signs of possible impending depression, although I am NOT a Dr, just a sufferer of very long term BPD! I'm sure you have felt this way many mines in the past, but can you remember what you did to bring yourself back again?? Can I leave you with that message please, do come back at some point and let us know how you are doing. Take care now HUGS XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX Should you need any further advice, please do let us know. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

[Verity81]

I'm kinda doing that at the moment, I've bought new clothes and accessories, looking to change jobs and hopefully back to university. I do think it's high time I got out of this rut I've been stuck in due to anxiety, I want to live rather than survive. As scary ad it is sometimes change is needed!

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[ifst5]

Is there something perhaps which triggered this? Might be good to retrace your steps...i have no advice with the whole makeover business as i've done it far too often myself. I find it easier and less time consuming/costly to just try and stick to changing what i'm most unhappy with these days. There's always that feeling that it will never be enough though...perhaps that's a good thing to keep in mind i don't know. All i do know is that feeling doesn't prevent such a situation from happening again - so maybe it's better to embrace these situations?

It's difficult because on the one hand i deplore change...but on the other it's like i need to keep striving for a 'better' situation. I just can't settle. I'm sorry something similar is happening to you. If you find the answers let me know!

[jean17]

Originally Posted by widgets

Been working in My job for 2 years and 8 months and living in my house for 1 year and 2 months...

Started with depression then this overwhelming feeling that I can no longer 'do,' my life.

Then now it's a complete desire for total change... I want to change myself, my look, my career, my home l, friends and hobbies.

I really don't see that I'll ever fit back into my life again. At the moment I am avoiding it, staying away from home and not going to work...

It's like an oncoming train. No point fighting it I suppose

Dear Widgets, it sounds like you know what is happening. I'm so sorry that you have to go through this again. We have terrible feelings. So acute. So painful. Please get help. Don't let this ruin all that you have. Sending good thoughts and prayers if you want them.

[widgets]

I'm seeing my psychiatrist on Thursday and my counsellor. I have a feeling of dread in the pit of my stomach when I imagine returning home or back to work. I don't know what else I am supposed to do. Its so familiar and predictable this feeling is. I could force myseld just to go home and pretend I am ok and hopefully things will slot back into place... But doubt it would be long before I fall back down again