[LemonZest35]

My parents were abusive when I was little and I have spent a lot of time in therapy coming to grips with what happened. I've come a long way and have managed to develop a decent relationship with them but being around them is still very hard. It totally triggers me. One minute I'll be making them coffee and talking to them about their vacation and the next minute it's like I am a totally different person, feeling smothered and choked and like I simply can't breathe. The triggers seem to come out of nowhere; generally they are pretty pleasant to be around these days.

Anyway, then I turn into a total wreck and act crazy, and no-one gets it, and I'M the problem, I'm the irrational one, as always. I hate when I get like this and wish I could stop, but it's kind of like tripping over the edge of a cliff and wishing gee, I wish I could get back up there as I'm sailing over the edge.

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[Achy Turtle Armor]

Just wanted you to know that I "hear" you.

[Astriferous]

I hear you too. I get the same way around my dad, sometimes. The feeling of being triggered just sorta sneaks up on you and takes complete control.

If you need anyone to talk to, we're here for you.