[mad mother]

I was diagnosed with bipolar around 6 yrs ago, last week the doc however diagnosed me with borderline personality disorder. I have periods of lows some major which include self harm and feelings of utter devastation. My highs can be mild to severe manic where I engage in hypersexuality. I have been with my new partner just over a year now, he is a good man who trys to understand and help. At the moment though I dont want him to touch me or have any physical contact with me, one of my manic friends (sexual) contacted me the other night and I had to see him as I am always thinking about him. What is wrong with me I have no interest in sex at the moment untill I see my friend. I now have no feelings of guilt at all I just want to do it again. I am having little sleep and am on the go all day so I know another manic is coming. I love my boyfriend and he adores me I just couldnt stop myself. I read the book "I HATE YOU DONT LEAVE ME" and it made me cry it was like reading my life, my ways and my thoughts. I am so confused and unsure how to deal with the mania now when I was single I just went with the flow.

[Travelinglady]

Hi! Sounds like your behavior is coming from the borderline/bipolar mix. Are you in therapy? I think that might be a good idea.