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Old Aug 30, 2014, 09:14 PM
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Why does my head spin with questions that never end?

Swirling around like water getting stronger just waiting to pull me under.

Some days are really hard to not feel like I am insane. Can I please just have a different brain?

I want to be normal. I don't want to feel lost. I don't understand why I am this way.

Look normal on the outside. Put on a mask everyday. Be who I have to be. The mom, the workaholic, the Christian, the cussing sailor, the caregiver, the angry woman...no wonder people never know what to expect from me.

Slivers of different people make up my fragmented personality. Fragmented and broken not one solid piece inside of me.
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Old Aug 31, 2014, 12:33 AM
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Why does my head spin with questions that never end?

Swirling around like water getting stronger just waiting to pull me under.

Some days are really hard to not feel like I am insane. Can I please just have a different brain?

I want to be normal. I don't want to feel lost. I don't understand why I am this way.

Look normal on the outside. Put on a mask everyday. Be who I have to be. The mom, the workaholic, the Christian, the cussing sailor, the caregiver, the angry woman...no wonder people never know what to expect from me.

Slivers of different people make up my fragmented personality. Fragmented and broken not one solid piece inside of me.
Very moving poem, and I can certainly relate to a lot of what you're saying. It definitely yells BPD.

BTW, in case you didn't know, you can also crosspost your poem in the forum called "Creative Corner". I put one of my poems there.
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Old Aug 31, 2014, 08:51 AM
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I'm new here.....didn't know they had that forum!! Thanks for the info!
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"Why would I want anyone to ever have to deal with me when I can't sometimes deal with myself, for someone else to endure my pain, when I can barely handle it myself. How can I make someone stay through the turbulent storms of emotions I face every single day when my life has been anything but stable?" - L.S.
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Old Aug 31, 2014, 09:20 AM
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Thank you for sharing
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