[Jordy]

Today I had a major slip-up at work... I took thursday and Friday off to go to Disneyland and my boss knew that. My plan was to leave for my aunts house tomorrow after work, so I'd have much less driving to do on Thursday. My working hours vary a lot, I rarely know more than a couple of days in advance, but usually it's between 9am and 6pm.
But last night I realized my boss had scheduled me for one delivery at 8pm tomorrow screwing up all my plans.

Today I wanted to negociate and had found someone to cover for me, but my boss wasn't happy about this. The BPD side of me took over and I partly lost controll, saying I felt like he was trying to annoy me on purpose. That all he was trying to do was make me unhappy and hurt me.
Of course my boss didn't like that and sent me home (I had finished my shift) telling me not to come in today and that this would have consequences...

I know I screwed up even though this situation would have been even worse pre-therapy. I'm really scared to go back to work now, as I worry what the consequences will be. Probably having less responsibilities and the most degrading jobs he can find for me to do. I know what he's capable of, as I have seen him doing every needed to get rid of other employees before me.

I'm pretty sure I'll lose my job due to this and that doesn't even really bother me. I'm much more scared to go back to work on Monday if I go in.

[Crazy Hitch]

Hi Jordy

I am so sorry to hear about the difficult situation that you are in right now.

It's an unfortunate thing that the vulnerable bpd inside of us takes over sometimes

It's hard for others to understand.

I hope that you are able to work through this.

Please let us know how it goes.

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

Well just have to apologise to your boss, I suppose. Try not to make a habit of it.

[Jordy]

I'm not sure that will be enough this time. I've already screwed uo quite a few times lately because I'm so depressed. I already felt like my boss was trying to get rid of me...

Originally Posted by Jordy

I'm not sure that will be enough this time. I've already screwed uo quite a few times lately because I'm so depressed. I already felt like my boss was trying to get rid of me...

Can you explain your mental health difficulties to your boss? It could make him much more understanding. I hope the issue resolves in a positive way for you.