[dancinglady]

I have always needed street drugs to fix my problems. Pharmaceuticals don't take care of my severe depression. I could not figure out how to get them. Bright idea - go to narcotics anonymous meetings. Some of the people there are court ordered. They may still be using and will know where the dealers are so now I will get references so I won't be doing it alone. It will now be so easy. Wow my pain had to get this severe so that my brain came up with this so easy idea. Yea no more depression. I am old so by the time I get addicted I will be dead anyway so no negatives that I can see. Party here I come.

[CANDC]

I am sorry you had an unsatisfactory experience with prescribed meds. Things have improved and there are more options available now.

Your idea of getting your meds from street vendors is like sending a kid out onto a highway to play. The risk of getting hurt is extreme. The pain relief is only temporary and it amplifies the depression leading to addictive behavior that can leave someone isolated and alone.

Why not give prescribed meds a try again and if you do go to NA, maybe it could be to overcome addiction?

[AzulOscuro]

Dancinglady, there are many meds available. And there are many that are being developed every day. Please, contact your doc and see what you can both do in regards.
Street drugs only can bring you more problems. One never knows for sure what they are selling. These drugs effects can be devastating, for you body and your brain.

[dancinglady]

I have just recently tried all the new better brighter pharmaceuticals with no relief. I don't care if I get addicted I am too old for it to matter. I have never taken drugs this is my first experience. Thanks for your advice.

[AzulOscuro]

Noone is too old to get a better life.
Did you try the drugs?

[dancinglady]

I can't work that fast. Just got the idea now trying to locate meeting and get a feel of who I woukd even ask. This is new territory with new risks so I want to be extra careful and take it slow. Thanks for your support

[AzulOscuro]

Don't say thank you. I like you and I want to be with you in this problem.
How long have you been feeling so depressive? Are you doing something to help you in your recovering?
You know for one of my post that I'm in a depression. My doctor increased my medication but I know the meds are not enough to get out of it.
I try to be busy by cleaning my flat, taking out my doggies, going to the shops, reading books, making some workout...is it enough? No, for now. I feel like crying in some moments...
What happen with therapy, dancinglady? You say all therapists consider you a basketcase. Are you agreed with them? I'm not. I think that if they think like that, they are not proffessional.

[sabby]

Just a thought...you may want to consider....

There could be people at these meetings who are truly trying to rid themselves of their addiction.

Why would you think it a good idea to ask them who their dealer was since #1 it could be triggering for them and #2 you may be mistaken as someone who is a narc trying to get information on dealers to get them busted. If the someone considers you a narc, you could find yourself in danger if not extremely careful.

I hope you reconsider dancinglady. I understand you are suffering and I'm truly sorry for that, but you could be placing yourself and other people in danger if you follow through with this.

[AzulOscuro]

There is another thing to consider. Drugs could induce you psicotic episodes and you could lose the control on yourself.

Dancinglady, did you try meditation and mindfullness? MMBean sticked a link to some audios. I began to practice with them today. I can't tell you too much for now but it was a positive experience.

[dancinglady]

I don't have psychosis I do mindfulness and meditation everyday and it is highly overrated.

[dancinglady]

Originally Posted by sabby

Just a thought...you may want to consider....

There could be people at these meetings who are truly trying to rid themselves of their addiction.

Why would you think it a good idea to ask them who their dealer was since #1 it could be triggering for them and #2 you may be mistaken as someone who is a narc trying to get information on dealers to get them busted. If the someone considers you a narc, you could find yourself in danger if not extremely careful.

I hope you reconsider dancinglady. I understand you are suffering and I'm truly sorry for that, but you could be placing yourself and other people in danger if you follow through with this.

Thanks for your concern. I plan to attend and listen to people feel them out watch them. I think I could tell the ones that are just there for the court order. I don't think addicts would do anything bad to another person at the meeting. Plus this is why I am going to meetings to NOT meet a Narc not look like one. I used to work in juvenile justice lockdown I think I know a narc when I see one.

[AzulOscuro]

But, I think drugs can develop psicosis episodes.

You say that bc you are living a deep depression. There are many antidepressants, why don't you try a different one. Trust your doctor.
Are you going to a psychiatrist now?

[dancinglady]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

But, I think drugs can develop psicosis episodes.

You say that bc you are living a deep depression. There are many antidepressants, why don't you try a different one. Trust your doctor.
Are you going to a psychiatrist now?

I have been on all of them. I can't take some bc of my physical health.

[AzulOscuro]

You don't take some meds bc of your psysical health but you are planning to take drugs from the street...i can't see the good thing in all this.

Look, I only made a search about one of the drugs that is considered less harmful, that is, marihuana and they say it can induce psicosis.

I'm not the right person to give you an advise bc my meds are giving me some effect, so I don't know how hard is to be in your skin, but please, think it twice.
New meds are being produced each day. I know they are expensive as hell but it would be better to take some under a doc prescription and revision.

Have you told to your psychiatrist about how you are feeling these days?

[dancinglady]

Originally Posted by AzulOscuro

You don't take some meds bc of your psysical health but you are planning to take drugs from the street...i can't see the good thing in all this.

Look, I only made a search about one of the drugs that is considered less harmful, that is, marihuana and they say it can induce psicosis.

I'm not the right person to give you an advise bc my meds are giving me some effect, so I don't know how hard is to be in your skin, but please, think it twice.
New meds are being produced each day. I know they are expensive as hell but it would be better to take some under a doc prescription and revision.

Have you told to your psychiatrist about how you are feeling these days?

Absolutely not. The pDoc won't prescribe the drugs bc of my physical health not that I won't take them. First I don't have a pDoc anymore second the ones I have seen in the past would go livid. I am not sure I would see the outside of their office to daylight. They would probably politely escort me to the nearest locked ward and wait until I had thought it through clearly. In other words until I saw it their way. No street drugs not now not ever. I really do not see how addicts see pDoc and still use. I have been in the psych world for 34 years and whenever I got this mindset it would be weeks before we talked about anything else. Probably why I never took them before. Anything to get a nagging therapist to shut up. LOL. So I have not gone to any meeting and seeing a holistic type of doctor so I can maybe take natural supplements instead of pharmaceuticals. Maybe natural will work better for me. I will again try this first. I will see if these bring relief.

[AzulOscuro]

Not sure if there are strong enough natural things. I once took hypericum and it didn't help me a lot but you know...this kind of things depend on the person.