[mommyto3furballs]

Been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder since December 2014. Really having a difficult time. I feel so alone. I feel like I have no friends. I don't care that I don't have friends but yet I do. I'm slowly pushing my husband away. I lost interest in sex with my husband. I can't find a job because of my lack of job experience so i'm always at home. Finances suck big time. All I have is my 2 cats and my dog who are my children. I don't have any children because i'm a failure in that department too. Feel like i'm slowly losing my mind. Lately i'm turning to food which isn't good because i'm hugely fat. I admit it. i'm a total loser

[mazing]

You are not a loser. You are just going through a really difficult time. That's ok.

It really sounds like you are feeling quite isolated at the moment. Is there anyone you can talk to about how you are feeling? Even your husband? Do you have a therapist?

[puzzclar]

You are just having a hard time, don't be so hard on yourself. If you are on medications, maybe its a good time to have them adjusted, or if you are in therapy, tell your T that things aren't going well.

I was recently diagnosed but have been dealing with depression for 10 years, and it seems to me that could be going on with the lack or interest in things. It's common, you are not alone. Try your coping skills, maybe one will work for you that will keep you in better spirits.

[mommyto3furballs]

I do have major depression for many years and since the borderline diagnosis I only seen the psych doc once. No therapy. Was supposed to be referred to DBT therapy but the course was full. I had a social worker but was only given 10 sessions (repeatedly gone in the past and wasn't helpful) so I gave up and told them to essentially shove it. I'm just so tired and so done with everything and everyone

[puzzclar]

Ok just take it one day at a time. I know its hard but its possible.

[Fuzzybear]

[mommyto3furballs]

i know part of the problem is hubby has anger issues. severe anger issues. I love him but I can't take the anger. he thinks i'm the one with the problem, but there are times he starts it. he is seeing a psychiatrist, but there has been no official diagnosis. he has major depression with anger. in fact I kept his butt out of trouble so many times. tonight he wanted nothing to do with me. perhaps its because i'm not interested in sex? I don't know. all I know is I can't continue much more but I can't afford to live on my own either. i'm on a disability pension and I can't find a job to supplement it. feel like i'm going crazy