[dancinglady]

I am now officially an old lady. Now when I have problems I find an oxycodone to take. Double up if I need to. My life is over-career, family. Just pain and hardships. I will just take my medication and sleep for the rest of my life. Done with reality. This med is good and at this age and my health problems I don't have to worry about addiction I will be dead before that happens.

[cryingontheinside]

Hi Dancing lady . don't know if you remember me . I haven't been on here for a long time .
I feel like my life's over too and I'm 34 .
Do you get the medication through the doctor ? Just wondering because my medication has never helped much for me and I would like to know more about it . so it helps ? How are you feeling in general ?

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[dancinglady]

It works great. It is an opiate like Heroin. Yes I get it from my doctor. He hands it to me like candy. Just tell your GP that you have back injury and they will give it to you. They just want their kickbacks and when they prescribe meds they get paid a %.

[HUNGRYSwan]

Originally Posted by dancinglady

It works great. It is an opiate like Heroin. Yes I get it from my doctor. He hands it to me like candy. Just tell your GP that you have back injury and they will give it to you. They just want their kickbacks and when they prescribe meds they get paid a %.

DancingLady.. I know we've never spoken before but I relate to the relief Opiates can give. I was a serious herion addict for years before I was even diagnosed. I understand the relief or 'rose tinted specs' that opiates offer. But theres always the payoff.

I found myself just numb. And even more dissociated from people. I just hope you're ready for that commitment, because oxycodone and it's like become a full time career. And if for any reason you have supply issues fro. Your GP the pain will return ten fold.

My thoughts are with you and I hope you didn't find anything I've said patronising. . That wasn't my intention. Be safe.

[gayleggg]

Dancing lady, I'm so sorry you feel like your life is over, but I understand the feeling. I'm 63 and just waiting for time to pass. There are small joys at times but most of the time I feel like I'm just wasting space. I hope we both find more joy .

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[shezbut]

(((((( dancinglady )))))))

I can understand how you're feeling. I struggle with similar thoughts and feelings as well, and I'm 44 y.o.

The "funny" thing is this: I regularly see people in their later years that still look and feel great (as I work in a retirement community). That is reality. 65 years old can be interpreted in different ways to different people. Maybe now is your time to actually enjoy life, not having to worry about work, kids, or whatever else. Know what I'm trying to say?

You can relax now, and do things that interest you. Go out on trips with old & true friends. Visit areas that you've always wanted to see, but couldn't do it with little ones. Join local groups. Volunteer at places that hold a place in your heart. Just some ideas.

Hope that this post doesn't hurt ~ I just thought that a different perspective may give you a little bit of hope. Hold onto it! We all need every bit that we can get. If you feel no hope inside, please do see a T.

[Tauren]

You could live another 30 years. Do you really want to be stoned that whole time? Wouldn't you rather get out of the house and do stuff?

[dancinglady]

Originally Posted by shezbut

(((((( dancinglady )))))))

I can understand how you're feeling. I struggle with similar thoughts and feelings as well, and I'm 44 y.o.

The "funny" thing is this: I regularly see people in their later years that still look and feel great (as I work in a retirement community). That is reality. 65 years old can be interpreted in different ways to different people. Maybe now is your time to actually enjoy life, not having to worry about work, kids, or whatever else. Know what I'm trying to say?

You can relax now, and do things that interest you. Go out on trips with old & true friends. Visit areas that you've always wanted to see, but couldn't do it with little ones. Join local groups. Volunteer at places that hold a place in your heart. Just some ideas.

Hope that this post doesn't hurt ~ I just thought that a different perspective may give you a little bit of hope. Hold onto it! We all need every bit that we can get. If you feel no hope inside, please do see a T.

Sorry don't have the $$$ for travel. My experience, education and skills have a price tag. No one is getting free labor from this woman. I lost a promotion due to my old age. I have health conditions I won't live that long. I can't afford a nursing home and I am not poor enough to qualify for Medicaid so no nursing home for me more like the state hospital for mentally ill geratric patients where is hell on earth. They give everyone Halldol to keep them shut up. I have to worry and take care of my two intellectually disabled sons til I die.

[dancinglady]

Originally Posted by Tauren

You could live another 30 years. Do you really want to be stoned that whole time? Wouldn't you rather get out of the house and do stuff?

Stoned and out of pain - "HELL YEA"!!!!!!!!!!!
I have no money for other. I have been out of my house doing things for 64 years. HELL YEA on the removal of emotional and physical pain. YES to the max.

[HUNGRYSwan]

Opiates are the greatest comfort blanket no doubt. No creative passion? Low sex drive? Even less capacity for empathy? Justification for all selfish acts? Distance from society in general? Yeah definitely. Id be daft to not write this out. Even if its just to remind myself why its not compatible with my life.

If you have suffered for so long I can always recall the positive effects as well. But when it wore off I felt more empty than ever before.

My grandmother took Oxy pain patches-----When she was 95. That is an age to be a junkie. Not 65.

[dancinglady]

I am too old and sick to worry about anything. You are already describing my life before Oxy so I guess my body has by itself produced all the consequences without the pleasure the drug will give me.

[Pierro]

DancingLady, it must be very difficult for you, having to cope with your own emotions and then to take care of your two boys..What would they do if there mom was taken from them...((((DancingLady))))

[dancinglady]

Originally Posted by Pierro

DancingLady, it must be very difficult for you, having to cope with your own emotions and then to take care of your two boys..What would they do if there mom was taken from them...((((DancingLady))))

I have many life threatening diseases so they will have to deal with this reality soon. I can't cope with the oxycodone and it is a great relief. Should have done it years ago. This stuff is really good.