[worknonit80]

I come here seeking some true insight. This is a little long but if you coukd honestly read through and give me honest advice, I could really use it right now.
Ten months ago I met a woman in a GLBT group. Right away we had an instant connection, but we kept it completely friendly and talked everyday even through our other dating other people. It wasn't til the end of April that we decided to quit dating and give this obvious attraction a try. She lived in California and I in Ohio. I finally booked a vacation for the end of June to go visit her and enjoy California. It was the best vacation of my life. She planned everything. She and I had fallen deeply in love. There were tears when I had to fly back home. As soon as I get back my mom takes a huge turn for the worst.... And I was a mess. She flew out to see me because she didnt want me to be alone during this time. Everyone including me were absolutely shocked she did this and I onew then she had my heart. The yearning got worse and she eventually left her job and family and came to ohio to live. She knew I was living at my moms and taking care of her house until my mom got bettee. She knew she was moving into chaos here, butvthat didnt stop her. I was so happy to have her here, but within a week, she switched. She was upset she coukdnt find a job, then git mad because she wasnt getting a job snd then git mad that I wouldnt give her any affection. ( not true) i gave her what I could with what I had left, working fulltime and dealing with my moms constant surgeries. No matter what I said, her reply was you had time. I was shocked!! Who was this new person?!?! I see therapist due too my anxiety and she said to bring her in. I did bring her in and therapist truly believescand so do I she HAS BPd. I said okay now what? I tried to save us, but just after 3.5 weeks here she drove all the way back home due to limited affection. Note: i just signed the lease the same day she left for our apartment. Then she gets homecand says she misses me and wants us to work it out. That she loved me sooo much and that she would even go to therapy. We missed each other so much. I said yes we can work on it, but that Im so hurt she woukd leave me with an apartment and everything. She apologized but saud she had her reasons. Four weeks have past of us arguing crying and just utterly being upset, the love is there... But she feels the need to flirt online. That was it for me.... I ENDEDVIT TWO days ago and I feel like I lostcmy soulmate. I need to know is how Bpd works? Was theres anyway of salvaging this? Im devastated, our friends are as well... Her actions vs words never matched up... So very upset and heartbroken

[CopperStar]

This a pretty good forum community for people who love / have loved someone with BPD:

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