[Kat4212]

The last 2 years the depression, BPD, and a couple of other things like self harm all have come back. This time I don't seem to be able to control all of it like I have in the past. I am seeing a social worker and psy Dr. And it has taken along time for me to trust either one. The last Dr I had raped me because of the BPD label. Since I tried to kill myself and I thought I was nothing anyways so he figured I was not either. So far the current ones I am seeing have not touched me. They say they won't but who knows? Just want my life to go good for a bit and I try to do things to help me but it does not get better. Told my social worker this week that I was nothing, have been telling her for a long tome and she still does not get it. I really thought last week that she had given up on me because I vented my anger on to her and called her a ****ing *****. Haven't told her that I had something cut out that will start to make me anothing. I really just do not know what to do. I read a lot of what is written on this site and some of the others. And what you write is a lot of what I feel. But sometimes it hurts to much to feel.

[Fuzzybear]

Some doctors do seem to think its ok to mistreat, stigmatise, violate etc. those with this "dx". I have nothing more to say except growl.

I wish you peace and healing

[Unrigged64072835]

Sorry to hear that you're hurting. I hope you find people that support you. You've been through some serious trauma, and you need help that works for you.