[GrandmaWiggles]

I was diagnosed when I was 37 and started on meds. I am 54 and soon to be 55. Been in therapy 18 years and been on so many different medications I can't even begin to count them.
I work my butt off in therapy, take my meds as prescribed etc and in the last year my symptoms have doubled. Let me correct that. Tripled I feel like a failure. My T doesn't know what to do anymore to help me. My P-Doc is talking about putting in patient as I have verbally attacked my therapist and physically attacked my ex roommate.
I absolutely hate myself. If you read this you get

Welcome.

[Lonlin3zz]

You definitely still have hope as long as you're still breathing.

Ever feel like an urge of strong negative emotion is coming? Try to concentrate on your breathing and try to observe that urge come and go.

You are definitely not a failure!

[Hairball]

I can totally relate I am 60 and have also been thru years and years of medications and therapy and still feel like I am falling apart. In my opinion I think it does get worse with age.

[shezbut]

((((GrandmaWiggles))))

I'm no spring chicken either ~ and I have had a heck of a time in this last year alone with horrible behavior, despite working hard in therapy weekly & taking my medications. That said, this past month has gone very well for me at home....just horribly at work. The pendulum swings, back and forth....*sigh*

You are still truly a decent human being. Things will get better again ~ they always do.

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