[subtle lights]

I have a huge issue with sticking to a job/field/career for long.

I am usually very enthusiastic about a job/field at the beginning, just to end up hating it later.
I've changed jobs a lot, not that often as I've heard some people do it, but cannot really stay in one field for long.

Actually I might stay in the job for a few years but in the meantime dreaming about doing other things. And every time I delve into a new interest, taking online courses etc, I'm so excited, I believe this is what I want to do from now on, but then after days, weeks, I totally lose interest, I just drop it and get into something else. While hating my real job.

Now I got to a point where I just don't want to do anything anymore because whatever I'd do I know I'll get disillusioned again. And I really should make up my mind as I'm unemployed right now and no idea what will I do later, but I have zero motivation because I know I will get disappointed again.

Has anyone had similar issues? With wanting to do something else all the time?

[DelusionsDaily]

Yeah. I have the same problem in terms of very short term strong interest(tupically only months for me) I'm not sure it's entirely BPD related for me. I have always Had trouble socially and any job I qualify for involves the public and I can only take the anxiety at the job for so long.

[subtle lights]

Originally Posted by DelusionsDaily

Yeah. I have the same problem in terms of very short term strong interest(tupically only months for me) I'm not sure it's entirely BPD related for me. I have always Had trouble socially and any job I qualify for involves the public and I can only take the anxiety at the job for so long.

Yeah, I have issues with anxiety at the job too, even if it doesn't involve public, just being around people locked in an office for eight hours and pretend I am feeling balanced and okay makes me want to throw my computer screen out the window. I have had calmer times but lately I have no patience. Probably because I've realised that whatever I'd do I'll get disappinted sooner or later and it's just pointless.

[subtle lights]

Sometimes after spending a day with someone/ in some environment I just want to become that person and do what they are doing. Then it goes away.

[DelusionsDaily]

Yeah I get it...just wish I had a good answer for ya, but I don't. I have no comprehension of people like my brother and dad who can deal with workplace and people.

[moonlitwish]

I hate my day job. I've been dog sitting on the side and animals are so much easier to deal with than people. I want so badly to quit my day job and dog sit or walk full time but i just don't have that large a client base. It wouldn't pay the bills. So I go in and put on a happy face and endure the drudgery for my wife so she can have fancy things.