[kat97]

Well I met my psychiatrist 3 years ago.. were both females and ive liked her from the day I meet her... but now I feel in love.. like really no one understands how much I love her I would happily kill myself if I didnt have her. I like her in every way I love her im sexually and romantically attracted to her. I cant live without her and I only have 6 months of therapy left.. shes my life.. I have no idea what to do.. ive never felt this way about anyone. Ever. It hurts so much because I know fine well she doesnt feel the same way. Shes so gorgeous and the feelings are so deep it is unbelievable it shocks me how strongly I feel about her she is perfecy in every way. Help me please
kat97

[Blaire]

I don't know how to help other than to tell you that I've had the same feelings toward my male psychologist for years. My heart goes out to you, I know how painful this is.

He and I are currently going through the process of separating and transferring me to a different therapist. It's hell right now, and I've had moments where I feel hopeless and suicidal, but I'm pushing through because I hate this attachment and want it to stop. The abandonment feeling is like a knife through my heart, but I firmly believe it is going to get better. My new therapist will know how to deal with BPD and teach DBT.

You are going to make it through this. The world will not end if you lose her.

[Ofeelia]

Hi Kat,
Im responding because I felt a need to reach out. I can identify with the intensity of a situation like this. I have been in a similar predicament, but it was shortlived because it was during an inpatient stay. I became madly enamored by my psychiatrist and he really showed an interest in what i had to say. My thoughts, opinions, how i felt, you name it. I had never experienced this bond before. I extended my stay just so i could have one more session with him. I told him how i felt about him and he made it VERY clear that there could never be any relations between us. EVER. When i came home, I lingered upon our experience. This type of infatuation is quite normal he explained. As you already know, your treatment is about you and improving your life. Have you expressed your feelings to her? Its important to bring up, so that projection can be addressed. You could also research on the internet about these types of situations. And please go easy on yourself. Boundaries are sometimes important lessons in our treatment. Keep us updated.