[cryingontheinside]

My dad shouted at me for 2 hours this morning . first he was angry that I was ten minutes late to meet him. Then he was angry he wanted a cigarette and I didn't have any . then he was angry that I'm not saving enough money , then because I didn't buy enough food shopping. And then it just went on from there . I was late because of a panic attack . but now I've missed my doctors appointment and I know he will be angry . I can't do everything right . I can't be perfect . I'm still not well. I wish I didn't have to feel worried about letting people down .

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

My dad shouted at me for 2 hours this morning . first he was angry that I was ten minutes late to meet him. Then he was angry he wanted a cigarette and I didn't have any . then he was angry that I'm not saving enough money , then because I didn't buy enough food shopping. And then it just went on from there . I was late because of a panic attack . but now I've missed my doctors appointment and I know he will be angry . I can't do everything right . I can't be perfect . I'm still not well. I wish I didn't have to feel worried about letting people down .

you did your best.

the panic attack you couldn't help

if you didn't have a cigarette, you didn't have one.

and as for the doctor's appointment, well, their is always tomorrow.

((((hugs)))

[childofchaos831]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

My dad shouted at me for 2 hours this morning . first he was angry that I was ten minutes late to meet him. Then he was angry he wanted a cigarette and I didn't have any . then he was angry that I'm not saving enough money , then because I didn't buy enough food shopping. And then it just went on from there . I was late because of a panic attack . but now I've missed my doctors appointment and I know he will be angry . I can't do everything right . I can't be perfect . I'm still not well. I wish I didn't have to feel worried about letting people down .

I'm sorry your dad reacted that way. I do want to say that his reaction us not how "normal" people react to things like that. I put normal in quotes because I don't know your dad, or you, or the dynamic there.

But I do know that most people, when someone is ten minutes late, they may be slightly annoyed, but not to the point of yelling. Most people, when *bumming* a cigarette understand that no is a possible answer, and had you had some, you would have given him one. So again, most people wouldn't start yelling at that. The saving money, and the buying food, it seems he was already riled up at that point and would have yelled no matter what the topic was.

I just want to suggest that there is a difference between letting someone down and never being able to please them in the first place. I had to learn that with my mom. Nothing I do is ever good enough.

I had back surgery less than a week ago, and she is getting upset that I can't wait on her hand and foot like I have. She refuses to listen that I cannot do things like I did before, and insists that I continue doing everything around the house. Even before the surgery, she wouldn't acknowledge that I have been in extreme pain. When I tried to bring it up, it was either "I don't want to hear it" or "you aren't the only one." I can't even bend to pick things up at this point, and she had me cooking dinner, and expected me to clean up the kitchen after on Monday. The surgery was just Thursday.

Some people really just don't see the problems that others have to deal with, or they don't care. It's all about them, and if it isn't, then they make it all about them. You cannot please these people. They will always find fault in something.