[BorderingOnDelusion]

I was shown this forum by a friend of mine and she thought i should give it a try. So here I am.

I am currently sitting in the livingroom of the person I care about most in the world. I agreed to come over for a week to visit since my life has recently be thrown into disaster. Things going wrong in my life isn't anything out of the ordinary for me but somehow I feel like this time is different. I have something to fight for. The problem I'm facing is that I can't seem to find the energy to stand up and actually fight.

This is my last day here and after this I don't know when ill see her again. She has asked me to move in with her but I feel like if i do ill be betraying her.... or maybe I'll just be fooling myself. I am having a hard time having a fluid thought to work this out in my head. I feel like of like I'm trying to break through a glass wall. I can see what I want but I am unable to reach out and touch it. and the more I try and break though the more my head hurts.

I know there is a solution and its probably a simple one but my life is not simple and there for if i try and work it out it will just became and pile of useless complications that I'm not sure i can handle.

Its silly, we aren't together, I'm honestly not sure what we are but I know I would walk though hell for her and yet somehow I can't break down a little wall to make that happen.

Talking didn't help, does that mean that this isn't even the most relevant part of my headache? Maybe there's just too much to say and not enough words to say it.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Bordering: I'm sorry you are struggling with this dilemma. Unfortunately I don't know as I understand enough of what's happening to really offer anything in the way of advice. However I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

I don't know, of course, if you're here simply seeking advice with regard to this particular concern or if you plan to hang in here with us. However, should you be planning to continue on (we hope you do)... may I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!