[Becoming]

Hey,

Just need to get some things out and possibly have some feedback. Having a hard time getting over an ex. She's my "favorite person." I made a post a while back about how I hate when she doesn't respond and I feel very rejected or like something is wrong. Usually everything is fine or maybe she is trying to avoid certain topics.

I was hanging out with her tonight and she joked with me that if I had a couple drinks I would start professing my feelings to her and want to make love. She is probably right. I immediately admitted to it. Now, this wouldn't be too much of a problem if she hadn't told me about a week ago that she doesn't see us getting back together. You never know though. I just don't want to keep holding on to hope when she clearly said that.

Well, I texted her that I miss her in a girlfriend way. I know she saw it. She did not respond. Maybe trying to avoid the topic. I have no idea if she still loves me or not. Either way, it seems she doesn't see us having a future. It's even though we have silly arguments like we are a couple. She agreed to that. But she is almost always talking to some other girl. We've been on and off for nearly a year and a half now. She's seen other people. I've only seen one other person. For me, she's the one I've loved more than anybody else. She feels like the one. It's so hard to deal with her possibly not feeling the same.

So what do I do? Is there anything that I can do? Would it matter if she said she did still love me as more than a friend? Or would it hurt too much if I asked her and she said no? I try not to get jealous when she talks about another girl. We are just friends. So I hide my jealously that creeps in aways. I think the tone of voice I use when I ask her about other girls gives my jealousy away. You know, in the end, I want her to be happy whether it's with me or not. I just love her so much. She's my favorite person. I idolize her despite all the things she's done wrong (and there are some unspeakable things...people think I'm crazy for forgiving her). Just...ugh. Someone please...opinions...advice?

[AzulOscuro]

Originally Posted by Becoming

Hey,

Just need to get some things out and possibly have some feedback. Having a hard time getting over an ex. She's my "favorite person." I made a post a while back about how I hate when she doesn't respond and I feel very rejected or like something is wrong. Usually everything is fine or maybe she is trying to avoid certain topics.

I was hanging out with her tonight and she joked with me that if I had a couple drinks I would start professing my feelings to her and want to make love. She is probably right. I immediately admitted to it. Now, this wouldn't be too much of a problem if she hadn't told me about a week ago that she doesn't see us getting back together. You never know though. I just don't want to keep holding on to hope when she clearly said that.

Well, I texted her that I miss her in a girlfriend way. I know she saw it. She did not respond. Maybe trying to avoid the topic. I have no idea if she still loves me or not. Either way, it seems she doesn't see us having a future. It's even though we have silly arguments like we are a couple. She agreed to that. But she is almost always talking to some other girl. We've been on and off for nearly a year and a half now. She's seen other people. I've only seen one other person. For me, she's the one I've loved more than anybody else. She feels like the one. It's so hard to deal with her possibly not feeling the same.

So what do I do? Is there anything that I can do? Would it matter if she said she did still love me as more than a friend? Or would it hurt too much if I asked her and she said no? I try not to get jealous when she talks about another girl. We are just friends. So I hide my jealously that creeps in aways. I think the tone of voice I use when I ask her about other girls gives my jealousy away. You know, in the end, I want her to be happy whether it's with me or not. I just love her so much. She's my favorite person. I idolize her despite all the things she's done wrong (and there are some unspeakable things...people think I'm crazy for forgiving her). Just...ugh. Someone please...opinions...advice?

You already did what you wanted to do. You expressed your feelings to her. Nothing else can be done. It’s now up to her.

I would also consider the reasons why she’s an ex.

[Fuzzybear]

I think... she’s an ex for a reason ..

[Unrigged64072835]

If she left you and is seeing other girls there's most likely no way she'll come back to you.
You do need to let it go and grieve, because it sounds like she already has let go.

Yeah it's going to hurt like hell, especially since she's your favorite person. She's not the devil either. Sometimes people just don't work out.