[elevatedsoul]

I feel like nothing really matters anymore

i dont seem to enjoy anything besides being isolated from everyone with my thoughts and flashbacks

i am doing very many things, recreational and social at an attempt to maintain and for my life preserverance..
It seems that i am able to manipulate happiness to my self?
As i dont know why i smile, laugh, and joke with everyone...

If it was a real feeling it couldnt be real or me because im really depressed ..
I dont want to see ppl and hurt too much to feel like


I just trying to stay true to my integrity... its the only thing left that i identify with..

[Sporty McDaniel]

I don't have anything to say except that I read your post. I hope you feel better soon!