[sadveiledbride]

At times I feel very cold. I feel dead to the world as if I am not here. I feel quite misanthropic, very hating and antisocial, asocial as well. Perhaps many other of you borderlines can relate.
I am terrified by a perceived dark thing that sleeps in me, something that sleeps inside my head and my brain, that comes out at my worst times, my worst moments... Do things have a deep meaning? Do my actions have a special meaning or are they merely misbehavior? Misanthropy can mean a lot of things, but are they deep or not? That is a question. Do things have a deeper meaning or are that made up by people to help them deal with cold hard facts?
Things likely have a deeper meaning, IMHO, but different things mean different things to different people.
In my head, there is this sinking feeling, a bit of a voice that whispers bad things will happen. Even when I think I may be in peace this voice comes up again.
As my last post in this subforum, this is just a rant perhaps, pooling out my thoughts. It is a bit refreshing to post in this forum, and weight is semi lifted off my shoulders.
I have this empty feeling once again. I am a bit at peace, thinking of nothing. Thank you for reading.

[Skeezyks]

[daggy]

Hi swb what did you do with the notes that told you how to relax and how to go down your path. ..

[Fuzzybear]