[GibsonD]

After years and years of therapy, doctors, medications, etc.. I am now diagnosed with BPD. I have read about it and talked to my therapist about it, and have a pretty good understanding of things. My question for anyone here that can relate is this. Medications for the underlying depression/anxiety have little effect. DBT seems like a foreign language to me. Absolutely no help whatsoever. I can talk for hours with my therapist about it, but the entire concept is just baffling. The example I used for her is how i felt in high school when I was forced to take Algebra. I failed miserably and still don't get it. My baseline functioning/coping was shaky at best before Covid. Now I am completely isolated. Avoiding has been the only way to cope. I do what i have to do to survive, but things that were simple now seem impossible. I don't feel suicidal, but wish I could just die already... The more I hear things like, I am not being open to change, trying enough, giving DBT a chance..... just makes me feel even worse about myself, and I didn't think that was possible. Can anyone relate? Give me any ideas or insight at all as to what to do? Thanks for listening...

[Yaowen]

Dear GibsonD,

I am so very sorry that nothing seems to be helping. How utterly heartbreaking. Wish I knew what to say that would help but I can't think of anything. Hopefully others here will see your post and respond with really helpful and practical words. It must be such an ordeal to be going through everything you describe. I can't even imagine. My only hope is that you will find something that really works for you!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen

[GibsonD]

Thank you so much for your kind words.