[tmadison19]

So, recently my counselor and my psychologist have told me that I'm on the road to Bulimia. I tend to purge, but not necessarily binge. I dont eat excessive amounts of calories then throw up. I just throw up whatever, whenever. Even water. I also tend to restrict. I'm not skinny by any means and I could stand to lose weight....am I on the road to bulimia or am I already there? Or is something else a possibility?

[ShaggyChic_1201]

Tmad,
Bulimia is a funny thing. It sneaks up on you when you're not looking. For a while, you're in control of it...you decide what you eat/keep and what you don't. It seems like a great way to have your cake and eat it too. But something evil happens. IT takes over your life and becomes a way of dealing with all problems. Good things, bad things, boredom, frustration - you suddenly want to binge and/or purge. Why? Because it seems like you feel better after you do it. What you really are is numb and then horribly depressed and disgusted and ashamed. Eventually you can feel nothing positive. No joy. No happiness. No love. Just depression, disgust and shame. Your life revolves around food and you're completely isolated, until maybe, just maybe you decide that there's more to life than being skinny and being in control, and you get help.

So the real question isn't "are you on the road?" The answer to that is yes. The question is what the hell are you going to do to get off the road before your feet are bleeding and your mind is shot.

Please seek counseling now and figure out why this is remotely appealing to you. As a 30 year sufferer, I beg you. Do it tomorrow. School counselors (if you're that age) are free.

Been there, wish I hadn't done that,
Bub

[tmadison19]

Originally Posted by bubsmiley

Tmad,
Bulimia is a funny thing. It sneaks up on you when you're not looking. For a while, you're in control of it...you decide what you eat/keep and what you don't. It seems like a great way to have your cake and eat it too. But something evil happens. IT takes over your life and becomes a way of dealing with all problems. Good things, bad things, boredom, frustration - you suddenly want to binge and/or purge. Why? Because it seems like you feel better after you do it. What you really are is numb and then horribly depressed and disgusted and ashamed. Eventually you can feel nothing positive. No joy. No happiness. No love. Just depression, disgust and shame. Your life revolves around food and you're completely isolated, until maybe, just maybe you decide that there's more to life than being skinny and being in control, and you get help.

So the real question isn't "are you on the road?" The answer to that is yes. The question is what the hell are you going to do to get off the road before your feet are bleeding and your mind is shot.

Please seek counseling now and figure out why this is remotely appealing to you. As a 30 year sufferer, I beg you. Do it tomorrow. School counselors (if you're that age) are free.

Been there, wish I hadn't done that,
Bub

Thank you Its definitely going to be a focus with my counselor.