[BellaStrange]

My last post was about how I was on my way to rehab. And I did go. I went to one of the many in Arizona. And now I'm at a different one in Cali. And I'm in love. I just thought I should share that. I'm realizing that this is where I need to be right now. I'm sick and I need help. I'm here for a reason. I am at a less locked down one, hence why I have my phone.
I've only been supplemented a handful of times. I'm doing my best. And I've never been more clear minded. But a part of me still thinks I don't deserve this... Is that just ED talking? Or am I just needing to go easier on myself?

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[Travelinglady]

Could be. There still might be some low self-esteem there, for example. However, you might mention this feeling to the professionals at the clinic. I am really glad to hear you are having a good experience and are feeling better. You DO deserve it.

[eskielover]

It's NOT the ED speaking, it's the mental issues that took you to the ED in the first place. Hope they are working on your underlying issues while you are there & not just the ED. They tried to cram the body image thing on me when I was in treatment....but there were so many underlying issues they never bothered to touch on.

Glad you are feeling positive about your treatment. Santa Monica is a beautiful area of California,....I grew up near there in the San Fernando Valley & lived in So Cal until 6 years ago when I finally left my husband after 33 years.....that was a lot of the underlying issues gone right there....just didn't really know it at the time of treatment & no one helped me realize it either.

Wishing you great success with your treatment

[spondiferous]

So glad you found something that works for you. Wishing the best in your recovery. And eventually as you get well and do the work you need to do, that 'undeserving' voice will subside.