[MtnTime2896]

"If I spilled my guts, the world would never look at you the same way" -Fall Out Boy, 'Just One Yesterday'.

But I never did and I still haven't. Why the **** do I still protect you? Then again, maybe you and your closest friends would make me out to be a liar. Only time you've been there for me is when it can benefit you, either by keeping me around and questioning myself or when you had to keep up appearances. And yeah, it has me really confused on whether or not I can even trust my own eyes. I'm just venting here. Venting because on top of everything, every damn bit of pain (physical and emotional), it was the fact that neither of you were ever there when I needed you in several ways. I lied to CPS to protect you and stay with you, but you couldn't wait to be rid of me. I just have to face the fact that mom, you weren't psychologically up to the task and dad, you never gave a **** in the first place.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

"If I spilled my guts, the world would never look at you the same way" -Fall Out Boy, 'Just One Yesterday'.

But I never did and I still haven't. Why the **** do I still protect you? Then again, maybe you and your closest friends would make me out to be a liar. Only time you've been there for me is when it can benefit you, either by keeping me around and questioning myself or when you had to keep up appearances. And yeah, it has me really confused on whether or not I can even trust my own eyes. I'm just venting here. Venting because on top of everything, every damn bit of pain (physical and emotional), it was the fact that neither of you were ever there when I needed you in several ways. I lied to CPS to protect you and stay with you, but you couldn't wait to be rid of me. I just have to face the fact that mom, you weren't psychologically up to the task and dad, you never gave a **** in the first place.

Sorry this is haunting you.

[Ohxpoorxme]

I did the same thing with CPS when I was about 13. I told them everything was fine at home so I wouldnt get taken away. I was always the one that would make sure things didn't get too out of hand when they were fighting (which was pretty much daily). When they'd fight while I wasn't there (during school) things either got physical or one of them would call the cops and have the other arrested for assault or possession.