[possum220]

When I am talking to someone I may feel some kind of connection. When they have gotten on with their own life I lose that sense connection. Despite the fact that I am highly sensitive I cannot maintain a sense of emotional connection to any-one.

I haven't had an intimate relationship with any-one for three decades. Even then it was a disaster. I do not participate in life/love as other do. I see life from the side lines. It seems that the only safe hug is from a stuffed animal. My p'doc wonders if it is because of emotional neglect that I experienced as a child or whether my brain is just not wired the right way.

I do still feel like a child despite the fact that the year of my birth tells me I left that behind a very long time ago. I wonder if I will ever 'feel' loved at all.

I don't think their is anything wrong with an inner child- we all have it.

as for ever being loved, well, I kind of wonder the same thing.

I know I can't be loved by my actual mom, but maybe a mommy figure in the future sometimes- doing all the things my mom should have done

I think it is extremely unlikely, but I can dream.

((((hugs)))))