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The last two days were terrible. I spent time sitting in my car because I didn't want to be alone with myself or with my dad. I've kept the neglect inside for years, now I'm being blamed for my perspective. I feel like s***. Childhood emotional neglect turned into mental torture by my parents who don't see anything. Or took me a few months to tell them I had several thoughts of sui. I never felt comfortable sharing emotions and now when I share I'm blamed for my perspective. This sucks. Did this just happen? Worst of all, it's not only with my parents. I need connection, not blame, and anger and sadness. My parents won't understand, and I'll be left alone. Unable to live independently.

you are always welcome to vent here and we will always read what you have to say. a lot of us in this forum are in the same boat

when I toldm y parents I had

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thoughts of sui, they just said well, do it then. put us out of our misery.

so not a great response..

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my mother also made her own attempt on my life. pretty shocking.