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Grand Poohbah
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I can certainly see why it’s still such a big issue for you. It’s natural that you’d still want people to connect with on that deep, intimate and caring sort of level, and with your upbringing, not feel like you’re able to find it, because it wasn’t being given by your family. Some people just shouldn’t be parents, really.
Is seeing a therapist something you’d be open to, if you’re not already? You might find the books The Body Keeps the Score, Running On Empty and What’s Love Got to Do With It? useful. |
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my mom abandoned me on a train and never looked back.
since that insodent she's basically thrown the book at me (physical abuse, emotional insults,) everything she can to hurt me- even banning me from my own grandmother's funeral using the words, well, why would she want you their?
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I have not spoken to my family for years, in fact: I don't even know where they are. last I heard they all fled to africa to start a new life I've thought about adoption several times, but I'm a young adult woman with a lot of emotional stuff going on I think it's a little too late for a mother's love.. |
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It's hard isn't it, when that familial love isn't there? That's supposed to be the one safe place we can instinctively run to when we need to. Everything that lives needs one safe place to go, and when there just isn't one, it's like, there's no place to rest, to recharge, to break down if you need. That gets exhausting. |
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out the window, do you mind if I ask where you got your username from?
ever since I saw it, I keep thinking of the nursery ryme on the dr demento show- a very underrated one, at that have I finally found someone who knows who dr demento is?. hmm |
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Backstory out of the way, of course I know who Dr Demento is. My 2nd husband gave me a set of his four disk greatest hits collection for our first anniversary. "After 'the incident' with the girl guides..." |
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I'm so glad you know who he is. he's so fun |
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I'm also starting to get a bit nervous. Stuff starts coming out, and I realize that my life reads like a Dicken's novel. Bad start in childhood lead to bad relationships and it all just kept spiraling out of control. At that point, I start to worry that people will think I'm making it all up for attention. I mean, it's what I would think. And, OMG, minor breakthrough. That's what I heard as a kid if I ever had an emotion-Quit looking for attention. Yeah, I'd love to have a trained professional help me through this process, if I can find any way to actually make t happen. |
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Grand Poohbah
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I think (some) people who use the attention seeker label might be uncomfortable/helpless when confronted with other people’s issues, in the moment at least, and they want those feelings to go away so end up dismissing you, instead of maybe taking a step back and admitting they don’t know how to help. All that to say your feelings are valid and deserve to have your problems listened to. Sorry for the essay |
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I do think my mom, and maybe my dad, couldn't deal with emotion. Honestly, I'm not great at it either. That's one of the things that caused me no end of trouble with my middle daughter. She's very high strung, goes to tears over anything and everything, and I never knew how to handle it properly. Happily, we began reconnecting about a year and a half ago, and that issue is one of the things we've been able to talk honestly about. Now me, yeah, I can't cry anymore. I literally can not force myself to do it. I might tear up a little, if things are really extreme, but I am just so tired of crying that I think I may have put up a mental block or something. |
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