[childofchaos831]

I have fibromyalgia, and it took a while for doctors to really understand (aka believe me) how much pain I am in every day... I have addiction issues, so the "common" treatments are not available to me.

Recently, I was in a serious car accident, which has made my neck and back pain much worse. I have gotten to ESIs, which have helped, but the pain then moved to another part of my back. According to my specialist, this is normal... something like the pain is masking other areas and when the shots help the first area, then another area wakes up and seems to get worse, when in reality it has been hurting the whole time.

My mother, who also has back issues, who has had several back surgeries, and is also in pain (but DOES have access to narcotics) refuses to listen or acknowledge that I am in pain. She is constantly telling me to do things, which are physical in nature, that I cannot do due to pain, and then she starts yelling and throwing fits when I say no or ask her to wait. But when I try to explain, she cuts me off and says "I'm not gonna have this conversation"...

I just want her to understand... I want her to stop manipulating me into doing more than I can physically, because I am afraid of her reaction if I don't do it... but as soon as I try to explain, she cuts me off, and then turns it on me like I am the one that is not doing my part.

I am 33 years old. I am declared disabled by the government for mental illness. I cannot afford to live anywhere other than under her roof. She lies on her bed for hours, any time she is home, and I am basically her hand servant. I have to get her sodas, I get her food, I get her cookies and sweets, I cook and clean, all because she is in pain and "cannot" do it herself. She is morbidly obese and a lot of her pain and back and hip and knee issues would be resolved by losing weight. She diets, all the time, or so she claims, but then she sees ice cream or cookies or high carb foods, all things that she knows she shouldn't have, and she tells me to bring them, because she wants them.

Meanwhile, I am nearly on the verge of tears from pain almost every day, while she sits on her *** and watches TV and movies and eats and takes her previous hydrocodone.

The only PRNs I have for pain are ibuprofen or aspirin. But she won't even sit and let me even try to explain this to her. She is really the only person I need to understand this because she is the only one that keeps making me do things that I shouldn't be doing... and she won't even let me talk.

Add on the mental illness and addiction problems, and I feel like ****. I had a couple drinks with dinner, because I just couldn't take it anymore. I had a month sober, and I was proud of that for once, and now, I have to go to IOP tomorrow and fess up, and try to explain all of this to them... I honestly don't even know what all I typed here... I am just typing, and sitting outside, cold, smoking a cigarette before I attempt to go to bed.

I am so tired of this.

[Skeezyks]

Hello childofchaos831: Thanks for sharing your struggle. This must be so difficult for you. I wish I had some suggestions to offer but I don't. I simply wanted to leave a reply letting you know I read your post & wishing you the best as you continue to struggle with this most difficult situation.

[Nammu]

(((((((((Child 0f chaos))))))))))))
Have you thought of asking your doctor to explain to her that your pain is real?

[childofchaos831]

Originally Posted by Nammu

(((((((((Child 0f chaos))))))))))))
Have you thought of asking your doctor to explain to her that your pain is real?

I don't know if that would even work... she knows, logically, that it is real. But to her it doesn't matter. Nothing matters except for what she wants... ever...