My Oncologist and I are about to Cross Lightsabers

I saw my primary oncologist today, who is a competent doctor and we are very

friendly toward each other.As I continue to get worse the pain is also, and as of

now my primary weapon he gives me is 100mg Morphine SR. Everytime I see

him now he is trying to push me to transition to 0.75 Mcg Fentanyl patches. This

has come up several times between us, and to be frank, I don't want to be on

that stuff. It spooks me, is not a true opioid, it is synthetic and made in a lab. Plus

it is very sedating, I actually don't want to sleep all the time. I do have good days

when the pain is not too bad so on those days he gives me an ample supply of

30/650 Percocet. I have a nurse here all the time, and my partner is a doctor, so

there is plenty of overwatch. I do not like like the ideal of being on Fentanyl, so I

push back against this. I mean good grief, I have; Percocet, Morphine SR,

Enough Xanax to take out a missile cruiser with, am on Phenobarbital (A

barbituate for seizure control), and am even given 12.5 Ambien CR to help me

sleep. I think that is quite enough and I am very rational and an M.D. as well. The

first round of cancer, my primary care doctor and half the cities specialists

missed the diagnosis for a year, and was put on Fentanyl then, guess Scott

thought it would cure cancer? So, I still have a bad taste in my mouth from that

experience. I am not going to let him put me on that. Am I wrong in thinking

this way?