Pain And Me

So my name is brent and iam a Psychiatrist and well that don't mean anything it actually means nothing it still means iam a person like anyone else and iam human the point is that i deal with chronic pain and i have been since 2012 since my fatal car accident when i was transported out for heart surgery and then i had to stay in hospital for 2 weeks on life support and so on life was kinda iffy for me after that and it was just not right for me it never went anywhere it never did me anywhere it didn't even help me keep work i would get sick all the time i was not healthy and i had so many health issues i always wondered why iam 33 now with a computer science trade and having psychiatrist under my belt as well id say iam very well educated and not only that i have millwrighting and welding underling me to ive worked in pretty wild and amazing spots in Canada and i got to see some pretty cool areas that took my breath away its for ever with me in my memory i hope for a life time but this is what i know working for so many years off and on i was not able to hold a job down full time and keep a job full time i would have it for few days or weeks and then loose it because of my health id call in not because i had a drinking or drug issue but later on found out i had cancer and this is why i could not keep a job i could not keep up with labour and intestine life i could not and when they found out about my seizure's conversion disorder they then said it was my ptsd and my trauma being sexual abuse from age 13 to 16 from 58 year old man and then had to keep my mouth closed the entire time and hid that for many years bed the doors and he always held a gun to my head he took videos of me and pics we were live in front of millions of people at one point like i remember vivid and it was yesterday and he took the easy way out he got 6 months jail got let out and off him self he was a coward and he hurt many people nto just me he did it to others we found out to