[leomama]

Daughter is away on a school backpacking trip. I'm now working ft. Because of this and great lent I am finally able to let go of something that has been hurting me for a very long time. I can now face the loneliness and emptiness on my own with spiritual help. This is something I've been trying to do for a very long time. I finally have a job that provides me with the kind of security I need. Although I've been independent since 18 I never worked ft for a company that took care of its employees. When I was married my husband refused to grow up and deal with his mental health problems. I used to think having a partner would comfort me, but after the emotional and mental and other forms of abuse I have endured I no longer see that as a comfort. Maybe in time. Right now I don't have the time. My next step is to get off my mood stabilizer so I can be free of the side effects.