[leomama]

It's a wonderfully liberating feeling. Going back to work has given me the freedom to put my feelings in a box for at least 40 hours a week if not more when I'm doing overtime. Many of my feelings aren't positive: frustration, irritation, anger, rage, fear. The situations that create these feelings are ongoing and unchanging. I've distanced myself from most of them but since they involved my family, my ex, my child or the man who wants to be in my life they are constant.

My sleep medication is either too strong or too weak. Now that I have access to health benefits I may be able to see my original psychiatrist again.

I am starting to run again and that is probably the greatest joy in my life.

Working is exhausting but I'm highly motivated to keep integrating my healthy lifestyle into the demands of my job.

Working gives me the chance to act like I'm Whole when I'm "damaged".

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by leomama

It's a wonderfully liberating feeling. Going back to work has given me the freedom to put my feelings in a box for at least 40 hours a week if not more when I'm doing overtime. Many of my feelings aren't positive: frustration, irritation, anger, rage, fear. The situations that create these feelings are ongoing and unchanging. I've distanced myself from most of them but since they involved my family, my ex, my child or the man who wants to be in my life they are constant.

My sleep medication is either too strong or too weak. Now that I have access to health benefits I may be able to see my original psychiatrist again.

I am starting to run again and that is probably the greatest joy in my life.

Working is exhausting but I'm highly motivated to keep integrating my healthy lifestyle into the demands of my job.

Working gives me the chance to act like I'm Whole when I'm "damaged".

That sounds great!!