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Default Feb 01, 2021 at 11:57 PM
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I had to take my granny (I live with her and help her) to a dr appt. she set it up in thr town where my abusive stepmother currently lives. I NEVER go there. It’s a huge trigger.

So I took her to the dr three times in two weeks. By the third visit I woke up in just a Horribly foul mood for no apparent reason. I had nasty, hateful
Thoughts in my head and very angry attitude. I managed NOT to blow up and did some reflecting. I believe the reason this happened was because I was triggered by having to go there and didn’t even realize it.

Now...for the last week I’ve had nothing but bad memories of her and dreams with her and my mean step sisters in them.

I do not like this and wish it would
Just stop. I haven lived in a home with her in 17 years. My dad died. Why can’t it all just leave me alone?

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Default Feb 02, 2021 at 09:32 AM
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I am sorry you got triggered and ended up reliving things you want to forget. I experience that myself and it makes me angry and frustrated. I also know that if someone else doesn’t experience this challenge themselves they tend to say dismissive things that only makes it worse because they do not understand that it’s not a choice to experience these triggers.

At least here you can vent and know others can relate
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Default Feb 02, 2021 at 04:28 PM
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Default Feb 02, 2021 at 06:57 PM
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I'm sorry you got triggered and have been reliving things you wish to forget, I can relate, this happens to me. It sucks. (it certainly is not a ''choice'' grrrrrrr)

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I had to take my granny (I live with her and help her) to a dr appt. she set it up in thr town where my abusive stepmother currently lives. I NEVER go there. It’s a huge trigger.

So I took her to the dr three times in two weeks. By the third visit I woke up in just a Horribly foul mood for no apparent reason. I had nasty, hateful
Thoughts in my head and very angry attitude. I managed NOT to blow up and did some reflecting. I believe the reason this happened was because I was triggered by having to go there and didn’t even realize it.

Now...for the last week I’ve had nothing but bad memories of her and dreams with her and my mean step sisters in them.

I do not like this and wish it would
Just stop. I haven lived in a home with her in 17 years. My dad died. Why can’t it all just leave me alone?

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They are in all my dreams
I understand as I experience that myself. There are certain things I have to stay away from that can trigger me to have awful dreams and wake up exhausted.

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Default Feb 03, 2021 at 04:37 AM
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Dreams are a way to process emotions. I think they are healing, even when they are upsetting.

I used to have dreams of my old house that were haunting, like being on a ghost ship. The trauma was the death of my father, not my abuse like you experienced. I had not returned back to the town in all those years, and felt major anxiety when going near it. When I told this to one of the first psychologists I saw, I was diagnosed PTSD.

Over time, that dream stopped, things have morphed and changed, other traumas surfaced which we now call c-ptsd.

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Default Feb 07, 2021 at 04:55 PM
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Just wanted to give you some hugs. Dreams are a way we process stuff it's hard. I often have very weird dreams about stuff that has happened to me and it's tiring.
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