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I had to take my granny (I live with her and help her) to a dr appt. she set it up in thr town where my abusive stepmother currently lives. I NEVER go there. It’s a huge trigger.
So I took her to the dr three times in two weeks. By the third visit I woke up in just a Horribly foul mood for no apparent reason. I had nasty, hateful Thoughts in my head and very angry attitude. I managed NOT to blow up and did some reflecting. I believe the reason this happened was because I was triggered by having to go there and didn’t even realize it. Now...for the last week I’ve had nothing but bad memories of her and dreams with her and my mean step sisters in them. I do not like this and wish it would Just stop. I haven lived in a home with her in 17 years. My dad died. Why can’t it all just leave me alone? __________________ Bipolar 1 w/psychotic features or schizoaffective bipolar type PTSD generalized anxiety OCD celexa, prazosin, Lybalvi and prn zyprexa and klonopin |
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I am sorry you got triggered and ended up reliving things you want to forget. I experience that myself and it makes me angry and frustrated. I also know that if someone else doesn’t experience this challenge themselves they tend to say dismissive things that only makes it worse because they do not understand that it’s not a choice to experience these triggers.
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I'm sorry you got triggered and have been reliving things you wish to forget, I can relate, this happens to me. It sucks. (it certainly is not a ''choice'' grrrrrrr)
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Dreams are a way to process emotions. I think they are healing, even when they are upsetting.
I used to have dreams of my old house that were haunting, like being on a ghost ship. The trauma was the death of my father, not my abuse like you experienced. I had not returned back to the town in all those years, and felt major anxiety when going near it. When I told this to one of the first psychologists I saw, I was diagnosed PTSD. Over time, that dream stopped, things have morphed and changed, other traumas surfaced which we now call c-ptsd. __________________ "And don't say it hasn't been a little slice of heaven, 'cause it hasn't!" . About Me--T |
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Just wanted to give you some hugs. Dreams are a way we process stuff it's hard. I often have very weird dreams about stuff that has happened to me and it's tiring.
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