[isotrope010]

Loosing focus of goal, discouraged, unable to perform.

[Yaowen]

Dear isotrope010,

I am so very sorry that you are suffering the things you described. It is really heartbreaking. Wish I knew what to say to help ease your pain!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen

[isotrope010]

Thank you for your response. I have difficulty expressing myself. I did not mean for my post to sound too extreme, although I can't seem to express myself. I am in daily conflict with past trauma. Other than disappointment in human rights and humanity in general, I am also disappointed in my memories - that is where loosing focus becomes discouragement. From there performance drops like a domino. It helps to not feel alone. Thank you for your support.

[artisticguitarist]

Hi isotrope,

I can relate to this. A big issue of facing trauma for me is that I have to accept that it happened at all. There's a whole lot of other issues too. I'm scared of feeling emotions and my knee jerk response for so long has been to dissociate. It's like a compulsion and difficult to avoid. You're not alone. Good luck