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cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 02:07 AM

Complex Trauma Prisons - Mistrust - YouTube

Disclaimer: video may only be useful if you're in a safe place (are not in immediate danger, e.g. in an unsafe environment like a homeless shelter, or in unhealthy relationships). As Tim said in the video, you've to remain on the alert for predators/abusive people. So if you're in an unsafe situation, and still want to watch, make sure you adhere to keeping boundaries and not trusting unsafe people.

I resonated with quite a few things in this video, and liked the wording and description (not that there's any fun in finding pleasure in such things).

cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 02:22 AM

Oh my gosh! US Open starts in less than a month. Nice! For some reason, I thought it was later. It makes sense it's in August. Let's gooo! Also, I hope there'll be no yelling and screaming coming from the spectators. 😅

cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 03:35 AM

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cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 06:55 AM

Back from lunch. Also bought toothpaste (they don't supply you with toothpaste & toothbrush in shelters; I don't complain as I've income from disability, but can't imagine people who are able but have no work [yet?] and have to wake up and go to sleep unsanitized). Can't lie, since the conflict with the bully and me reporting him to the shelter staff and the subsequent conversation we'd, I feel anxious and it's constantly on my mind re: how the bully will react. I already see it coming: him doubling down on the fact that verbal abuse is normal. Of course, if it continues I'll start recording and next step is to file a report to shelter authority. If the authority fails to find solutions I'll go to legal action. I took some photos of the bathroom and his bed (he has two towels! And was complaining he has to wash his towel every time after taking a shower because he wipes the bathroom floor with it). Just in case.

cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 07:25 AM

cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 08:45 AM

Min 38:00 - it can most certainly happen to you if you suffer from C-PTSD. Isn't it wicked how normalized homelessness and addiction is in the West?

Also, she mentioned she has ADD. I'm not so sure about it, but if it's true I owe her an apology.

cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 09:23 AM

cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 09:49 AM

Logged in my war journal the result of me reporting the bully and the findings of taking pictures today of the room.

cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 10:19 AM

Oh... My... Gosh! Breakdance will be in the Olympics as a sport! So cool! I did a bit of breakdance (non professionally) when I was a kid. My teacher asked me to do a move once in front of the class and I nailed it. That's a good memory I never thought about.

Also, physics and breakdance together? Oh my gosh! What's not to love?

Also, I see what they did with the video title. 😅😊

cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 11:17 AM

Thanks for the hugs, @unaluna . They make things more bearable. They really do. Hugs back.

cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 12:02 PM

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cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 01:08 PM

cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 01:24 PM

The rent prices where I live are way crazier than what they complain about in the Netherlands

cptsdvictim · Jul 21, 2024 at 02:22 PM

Also, just learned that Joe Biden is dropping out of the race. 😔 I feel sad. He did so much and he's so resilient. Will Harris be able to bring the nation together, keep the focus on what the American people can achieve together when united, and will you, the American people elect a black woman to be your president, and not just any president but the first female president the USA ever had? The fact that she was an Attorney General should make her able to deal with someone who was indicted. But will she hone in on what has been done, accept responsibility through accountability of what failed and focus on what can be done? I can only hope she will win. Not much time left. Hopefully, people will unite and have a good VP elected by her.

unaluna · Jul 21, 2024 at 04:20 PM

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Originally Posted by cptsdvictim

Thanks for the hugs, @unaluna . They make things more bearable. They really do. Hugs back.

I appreciate that. I was worried i was being intrusive. But wow some of your stuff rezlly speaks to me. Both the links, but esp the way you talk.

cptsdvictim · Jul 22, 2024 at 02:36 AM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

I appreciate that. I was worried i was being intrusive. But wow some of your stuff rezlly speaks to me. Both the links, but esp the way you talk.

I'm glad you're finding value in what I post. And if anything I post helps you, that's great. My job is done. 😄😊

cptsdvictim · Jul 22, 2024 at 02:41 AM

Good mooorning. Rewiring the morning incidents without the bully present is great. Dissipating that anxiety in the morning and removing the walking on eggshells feeling due to his narcissism.

That being said, I implemented and rewritten a few things for the issue I'm currently working on. Nothing major. And, most importantly finished implementing the tests. They work. Of course, like all the others, they're not complete though I plan to write the rest of the tests in a dedicated multi-subtask issue.

This means, I get to review my overall work for the past week or so. And if everything goes well, I might even merge today and have the rest of the week for another issue. If I finish today I'll switch to normal work, otherwise I'll switch to feature implementation/bug fixing.

Good progress. I'm proud of myself. Still, lots to do. So more work coming!

cptsdvictim · Jul 22, 2024 at 02:51 AM

Yesterday, my calendar prompt from GGSC monthly calendar said: "Get Help from Friends" and I'm glad I got some support here (even if it's just a hug, it means a lot). Today it says: "Overcome Worry" - inline with my previous post. Tomorrow's prompt is: "See Your Own Goodness". Perfect for when bully narcissistic roommate returns and also for my visit to the doctor.

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