[Kamidogu]

I'm starting to wonder about how stable I am.

For days and days I was depressed, on the verge of suicide. Suddenly I felt better. I felt unstoppable, like when I was 16.

But today, I was called a name, and now I feel like life has no meaning.

I don't know what's going on with me. I recognize this is something silly to get worked up over, that people are called things every day. But for some reason, just being called a name has put me right back where I was a few days ago.

I don't know what's going on, and I haven't been getting much help, save for a small handful of understanding words from, I think a member or two. I'd just like to know what is so wrong with me that I could want to drown one day, feel like a bestselling author the next, and just being a victim of name calling makes me want to burn.

[LostSavant]

Kami- Sounds like you might be Manic-Depressive....Might want to research it....
You are worth saving...You have a right to be loved.....//0

[Belle1979]

I have the emotional ups.. so high I could fly an the lows... oh so low.
My step dad is a Psych Nurse and noticed my "manic" mood and I started to wonder if I was Bi Polar.
I'm NOT but it did worry me.
I had T appointment and as he pointed out - I am emotionally up and down.
On the 'high' I didn't go wild, spend a heap of money, do anything totally out of character, paint the town red etc.. i was just very very (weirdly) happy.
It only lasts a day or two and then i am back down for much longer.

For me I try to enjoy the up moods because geeze they really are a blessing!