Don't know how to deal with emotions

I keep going from no emotion at all to exploding with rage within minute intervals. My mom says I keep acting like some dumb, mindless zombie who doesn't ever show any emotion, but seriously I think I'm actually going to punch someone/thing because I'm so mad I feel like I'm going to scream. I have no clue why either. Usually I'm the calmest person in the house and I usually never get this mad over anything. I have no clue how to deal with it peacefully and non destructively. The last few times I got this upset I would do something like drop out of public school and into homeschooling or run away. Right now I just want to walk out and never look back, but instead my mom has me in my room as punishment for being a little brat. That's probably a good thing, even if I am sulking around like some PO'd lion in a tiny cage.
Anyway, what's a healthy way to release anger? I don't want to end up kicking my window in or something dumb that will make my mom kick me out.

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Have you tried beating your pillow or screaming into it. That sometimes helps me. Listening to calming music also helps me sometimes. Safe hugs.

Thanks you all; the website has some helpful stuff. The pillow thing vented some energy, and the calming music made it worse somehow. Screaming into the pillow annoyed my mom, but it helped. AC/DC actually got me back to normal. Weird; I thought that was supposed to make you angrier.

Gamma: sometimes in college when I was really upset blaring Metallic is the only thing that helped! Did you try pounding the pillow?!

Yeah, but that didn't really work. I started drawing and now I feel calmer than I have in forever. Not that I can draw lol.

The empty chair technique. Pretend that the person you feel angry with is sitting in that chair. Express through words and gestures how you feel. When I first learned that I was a very angry and embittered person I saw how raw and visceral my anger was through this exercise. It was scary! But I began to recognize many feelings and thoughts that acted as triggers for my anger.

The anger journal. Keep a log of when you felt angry and include information such as ranking on a scale of 1 to 10 how angry you felt, what happened, what you did in response to your anger and what thoughts or feelings you had.

Catharsis. In a safe environment with someone you can trust let you guard down long enough to release all those repressed feelings. Let it flood through you. I did this during the course of my counseling. I wrecked the office! But as I broke down I recognized how truly destructive my anger was. I imagined what it might have been like if that office was a person (particularly a person I cared about).

Gamma:
I keep going from no emotion at all to exploding with rage within minute intervals.
>>> IMO, "no emotion at all" is you holding it all in like holding a basket ball under water. Then "exploding with rage" is all those held in feelings bursting to the surface like an underwater basket ball might. It's just the pattern of stuffed down feelings that eventually have to burst forth.

My mom says I keep acting like some dumb, mindless zombie who doesn't ever show any emotion, but seriously I think I'm actually going to punch someone/thing because I'm so mad I feel like I'm going to scream. I have no clue why either.
>>> Your first task is to honestly and bravely examine exactly how you feel about certain things and who you are angry with. You need to identify the true and correct TARGET of your unhappiness and anger. I'd guess it's one or both of your parents.

Usually I'm the calmest person in the house and I usually never get this mad over anything. I have no clue how to deal with it peacefully and non destructively.
>>> IMO and experience, you need to first of all identify exactly who or what you are upset or angry with and why. Then you need to find a safe way to get it off your chest. You might need to write that person or thing a letter telling them EVERYTHING you feel and what you want done about the situation - it's a letter you may not send but just the writing of it will take a load off of you. You may have to figure out how to tell that person what you think and feel if it's safe to do it. You may have to follow another poster's recommendation to place that person in a (stuffed) chair and tell them all that you want to say, yell, scream, hit, beat, pound, etc. so you are expressing and venting your angry, frustrated energy towards the CORRECT TARGET (the person/thing you are angry with) and hopefully getting some relief from your held down feelings.
good luck,
jim

When I get really angry, I throw ice cubes into an empty bath tub. It really helps me relieve my anger in a non violent way. I hope you feel better soon!

I'd try that, but I hate loud noises.

Okey, I'm starting to think I have a problem. My hair is falling out and the fact that I've started pulling it whenever I'm upset isn't helping. My nail biting habit has returned and is a lot worse than it was before. I'm naseaous to the point where I feel like I'm going to puke. I even completely lost my appetite and the only thing I can stomach is Big Red gum and Cinnamon Toast Crunch.
Thank you Jim; that's very helpful. And just to let you know, it's all three of my parents (Mom, my father and stepdad), two of my brothers (one's autistic, the others just a jerk-off) and myself that infuriate me on a daily basis.

You might first have a physical to rule out a somatic cause. Your general practitioner also could refer you to a professional for a psychological evaluation.

Good luck in getting the help you need, TheGammaGeek.