[Sunshine1992]

This may sound weird ..but i see my emotions in the corner ..They wait and on me to become weak and then they ( anger - depression-hyperness-paranoia-crying-creepyness) just wait to pounce on me...it could only be one or all...I try so hard not to let them get to me..But once they hit ..I'm a gone..It's been so bad i've had to leave resturants -stores-family gatherings. One time i lost my truck in a shopping mall parking lot..I got so freaking paranoid i couldnt find it..Went to my sisters house one time and in my mind i had never been there and didnt know anyone ..So my thoughts in my head made me leave...These emotions scare me alot..My husband is gone alot ...He works in the Gulf of Mexico...So hard for me being away from him...What worries me is i'm afraid when i get bad with these emotions i might do something to make them stop ...I feel as though they control me...I'm more down that i'am up......Just tired....

Hello, Sunshine1992. Is professional help an option for you?

[OrangeMoira]

Welcome to PC! I'm glad you're posting here.

I'm sorry you're struggling so much with your emotions. It's really painful to be caught up in emotions that are so strong.

Being afraid of a situation and then leaving is sometimes called avoidance. It's a way of dealing with the scary feelings. There are a lot of people who post in the anxiety section who are working to get over this behavior; there are some great threads there about other ways to cope.

Being aware of your feelings and talking about them is a good first step. Hope you're having a good day today.