I strongly believe that I do not have any kind of disorder. I think I may be borderline anorexic /bulimic but not full blown. And I have cut myself before but I haven't in two weeks

and I've had a lot f anxiety/panic attacks but I don't think anything about that.. I think anxiety is getting the best of me right now though. I would never and have no plan on ever commuting suicide but that thought has popped into my mind a lot lately in the past 5 months. I would never so please don't get me wrong. But why did that thought even occur? None of this makes any sense.
I'm just a normal 16 year old girl.