[shoez]

*I curse in this*

I have a habit of changing randomly. its not DID (as far as I know) I just change...I change the way i act I change how i feel about things, my temperament..my shyness
LATELY things have been overload mental overload because of stress and triggering in everything....and I suddenly changed just now. and its depressing me because I liked how I was yesterday and now i just changd and i DONTKNOW how long this is gonna lst. sometimes i dont change for months, and suddenly BAM... its just not fair


I need to tell someone.. I wish I could tell my T, but what if she thinks im lying. shyt shyt shyt shyt shyt

i feel so out of control i feel so sick of this. its like I JUST CANT DO THIS ANYMORE

[Mindinpieces]

Originally Posted by shoez

*I curse in this*

I have a habit of changing randomly. its not DID (as far as I know) I just change...I change the way i act I change how i feel about things, my temperament..my shyness
LATELY things have been overload mental overload because of stress and triggering in everything....and I suddenly changed just now. and its depressing me because I liked how I was yesterday and now i just changd and i DONTKNOW how long this is gonna lst. sometimes i dont change for months, and suddenly BAM... its just not fair


I need to tell someone.. I wish I could tell my T, but what if she thinks im lying. shyt shyt shyt shyt shyt

i feel so out of control i feel so sick of this. its like I JUST CANT DO THIS ANYMORE

Sorry to hear you feel this way. I hope you can get past feeling out of control and sick soon, However try to hold in there if you moods have being changing rapidly then try to think sure I will change back to better mood soon, easy for me to say I know. I am sure your T wouldn't think you are lying. You probably do things like this anyway, try to write down when you feel all these different emotions and what’s happening in your life at that time good and not so good this will help. It may help you get better prospective of things and release some stress from your mind. You can take them and show you T if you want to. We all can easy forget and overlook something’s about ourselves and what has happened in a day when our emotions get the better of us.
I am NO EXPERT so please do not take what I write seriously. From your T point of view when they see you in person, you may be in different state of mind to what your trying to explain about how you have felt in past. Well sometimes they have to explore what you are expressing, they can't see into the past so them questioning you is not them thinking you are lying. HOEVER I WILL SAY THIS ONLY YOU KNOW WHAT YOU FEEL AND DON’T FEEL, NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO SAY OR TELL YOU OTHERWISE. Why I see it this way is a long time ago I try to explain myself that I get angry and act in not the best way. Yet my T at that time said hmm I don't think you are the type of person who would get really angry and show signs of anger towards people, it would be interesting to secretly film you to see if that really was the case, of course we can't do that. I don't think she thought I was lying but trying to get me to think how much of it was my own judgement of myself and situations.
This may not be how it is for you or an answer you were looking for. However you should try to tell your T everything you feel and want to tell them because they can only help you are far as you open up and let them, they are not there to say you feel this way or you don't because they are not you. Wish you all the best in future with what you are going through