[Sadness2011]

Hi all,

I'm slowly getting over my initial devastation of being cruelly and disrespectfully rejected by my old high school boyfriend. I still think about him every day, but I don't cry over it anymore and on the couple of occasions that he has tried to reach out, I've been the bigger person and replied with a simple "thanks". However, I think this instance was just the trigger for another depressive episode because for awhile now, I've just been up and down and okay then not okay, etc. I went to my close friend's daughter's baby shower last friday, and It was held at my old place of employment. I used to work there with her and a couple of my other good friends. As I entered, she greeted me with a big hug as we always do, and both of the other girls I mentioned hugged me as well, but that was the extent of the interaction for the whole party. It felt like I was on the outside looking in on what used to be "my group of girls", and I left the party crying the whole way home. I should say that It is completely expected that she would not be able to spend a great deal of time with just me catching up, etc. because she was throwing a party. I just felt very out of place for some reason, like I was just another guest at the party. Perhaps it's just me being overreactive and insecure but I hate feeling so up and down like this. If I'm not at work, I'm just "existing". I have little to no interest in doing anything but sleeping. or being alone. I am also on psych meds for depression and ADD but even they don't appear to help for very long from day to day. Anyone else experience these wacky emotional ups and downs? Am I losing it?

[LadyShadow]

No, you're not losing it. I understand what you mean by feeling like the outsider. I had a group of girls in high school that I was very close with and they all are off getting engaged and married and kind of left me behind. You are very strong to go to that party, so I commend you for that. I was invited to some get togethers by those group of girls and I declined because I got fat and I wasn't as pretty and skinny and sexy as I used to be. I see them on Facebook, and noticed that they have "replaced" me in their group by adding some other girls.

It makes me sad and got me upset so I deleted two of them but kept one because she was always nice and didn't do anything to me. But, she is friends with the others so I see them all together in group photos and it still bothers me that I am not part of their group anymore. So I know what you are going through. My answer to that is, make a new group. You can start here. By posting and playing the games and joining the community. Make one or two comments or join a chat and you will find you are not alone.

Welcome and don't be sad. I look forward to seeing more of your posts.