[utz2232]

i am constantly angry with people as they tend to disappoint me left and right. the agency that is working with me helps to subsidize the apartment that i'm living in. the agreement was that i would keep the apartment clean in order to keep the subsidy. that's fine but who decides what the meaning of "clean" is and where did my ability to live her and live life as i choose go out the window?
i want continuity and i want to be taken seriously. i am not being validated by the agency and when things happen that result in my being upset, they don't want to talk to me anymore because i raise my voice. i don't consider raising one's voice as yelling since it is only to emphasize that i'm upset. i can control the swearing but i don't know many people who calmly state they are angry and calmly talk as if nothing has happened to make them angry.
i'm so confused. the rules changed on me 2 months ago, without warning. i understand that i'm not the only client at this agency. i understand that things pop up from time to time. i don't get why my case manager, all of a sudden, doesn't return my phone calls, why no one gives her the messages, why i have to fight for everything, even the ability to get someone to talk and listen to me.
it leads me to feel more and more unimportant, worthless, pointless, etc. things i feel on a constant basis and are now being reaffirmed by an agency meant to help me.

[gma45]

I wish I had an agency to help me pay for an apartment, I would be so grateful. when I am angry I clean so it would be spotless! I wish you well.