I've always thought of myself as a naturally sad person. I really don't know how to deal with it. I want to be alone a lot, but then again I want company constantly. I feel like a huge contradiction. I can't escape this loneliness. I don't feel like going anywhere/doing anything most of the time, but I want to get out so much. Does I even make sense? I am never sure of myself anymore.

[Puffyprue]

have you ever consider to look at avoidant personality traits?

It makes sense since i feel the same way

hugs to you

Yes. I can totally relate to the traits of APD. I see my psychologist today so that will be good to talk to someone.

[Puffyprue]

i have APvD so when i read this its sounds like me but you might have something different
let us know how it goes
hugs

I feel I have a form of it in some way, but how do you really know? I guess I've never been sure how anything is properly diagnosed. I read about APvD on wikipedia, and I can totally relate to everything mentioned.

[PunkiesPink]

Originally Posted by borntoroam

I've always thought of myself as a naturally sad person. I really don't know how to deal with it. I want to be alone a lot, but then again I want company constantly. I feel like a huge contradiction. I can't escape this loneliness. I don't feel like going anywhere/doing anything most of the time, but I want to get out so much. Does I even make sense? I am never sure of myself anymore.

Hi! Maybe you can make up your mind about this if you don't think about it so much. I would do something different. Sometimes things have a way of fixing itself.

Hello! It's difficult not to ponder about it. I try to do things differently, but I always end up in the same place. It's something I guess I just need to work on (getting out, being more socialable, etc.). It's weird; we realize the things we need to do, but sometimes it's really hard to go through with them.

[Puffyprue]

Originally Posted by borntoroam

I feel I have a form of it in some way, but how do you really know? I guess I've never been sure how anything is properly diagnosed. I read about APvD on wikipedia, and I can totally relate to everything mentioned.

few years ago i was on therapy, my psychologist gave me a few projective psychology test and from that it show everything but that not just it he also make along observation about my past and my reaction to situation until he diagnosed me with Avpd, its painful therapy because i never talk about that before to anyone and theres certain memories that bring back the feeling and its really painful but at least know i know, and i also seeing psychiatrist and she have the same diagnosis after long observation , so maybe work with your pdoc would help the key is you need to be completely honest .goodluck