[buddieangel]

hi there
Firstly I am new so sorry if I have posted in the wrong area or did anything else wrong..

I've come here to explain one of my many problems (most of which I think branch off anxiety/low self esteem).

My problem is that I am just really emotional and sensitive. I'm having trouble explaining..
it's just the intense emotions I get when confronted with something that triggers my emotions - perhaps goes against my personal beliefs and opinions, or even THOUGHTS of something happening - the fear of it happening, more like. It makes me so nervous I literally feel like vomiting. I get scared, very angry, and feel like crying. I feel hopeless and worthless..
I should note I mainly feel such effective emotions when thinking about self image - I have a boyfriend and I know he loves me but I feel like I can never be perfect for him. he even said that of course I'm not the most beautiful girl in the world but it doesn't matter to him. but I know if I looked better he would love me more.. I can't get the idea out of my head.. it's eating me alive for nearly 2 years now. I want to be the only one he finds attractive.. the thought of him liking the physical appearance of other women sickens me so, I don't know why even though I guess it's a natural thing for people. but I hate it.

I've tried to lose weight, I've tried to gain weight, I've over exercised, I've tried all sorts of things to change myself but to no avail. I'm not getting the desired results.. I can NEVER be perfect for him or ANYONE.. anyway I'm getting sort of off-topic, that's a different issue of mine.

what's bothering me is, well, the fact I get so sensitive over everything. the emotions I feel don't feel normal. like they're on a high scale, an abnormal height. they're too much for me to take! and they're causing me to do stupid things..
I mentioned the above example because that's the main thing I get so worked over about.

other things include what people say to me and how I interpret it - criticism for example.

other smaller examples:
when I see people cry, it makes me cry
when I see people fight each other, be it verbal or physical, it also makes me cry/feel very sad, even if I don't know them.
when I see most things negative that causes negative emotion in others, it just makes me feel so down for the rest of the day, makes me want to cry.

I feel like there's so much more to say - well there is but I'll end up writing a novel if I post it all. and I'm feeling nervous writing this now so because of that I've forgotten a lot of what I wanted to mention.

thanks for reading, I hope you can help me out with this.

[edward6]

I was a people-pleaser for much of my life until I realized that no one really cared, and they disrespected me for caring more for them than for myself. Now I'm not, and I feel much better. If I must change myself to please someone, they're not worth it; no one is. If you feel that they will love you no matter what you do, then simply being yourself couldn't be more perfect.