[gracez]

Hi everyone,

I just looked at this forum for first time in past few days. I've mostly been participating on the depression forum. Thanks for some of the helpful exchanges here.

I'm wondering what others think about trying to push away emotions when you're depressed.

I'm so upset and anxious most of the time (day in, day out) and can't stand feeling that bad. It's a good thing I'm not into drugs or alcohol, I can see the appeal now! I can't get much good feeling or relief from these emotions nowadays. It's not a simple - take a walk, breathe, sort of thing, though I do try to do these things on occasion.

I find myself trying to spend as much time zoned out as possible, so that I don't have to experience all the upset. Thing is, it's still there, and sometimes so strong that I can't zone out into a movie or book.

It's too much to experience the pain all day / night long, but also zoning out doesn't seem so great.

My writing isn't the clearest today, I'm having a bit of trouble expressing myself, but perhaps something has been understood?!

Thank you

Gracez

I think it's okay once in a while. I do it slightly differently. I just stare inward and go "someplace else" for a few hours. Maye it isn't good but if you can get a little break now and then it's hard to resist the opportunity.

[Thunder Bow]

What is upsetting you? Right Now?

[gracez]

Everything...feeling hopeless about life, that I have to go thru a day

[Thunder Bow]

Is there any thing going now, at this time making you upset? Be specific. Some times a difficulty with an issue can ruin your day!

[gracez]

yes, a lot of loss, circumstances that i can't get my mind off of and that take up my mental space. then i just get upset that i'm never feeling better, i have no life, i find no joy or meaning in life, and that i don't like anything in my life. those are the types of thoughts i have all day.

[Thunder Bow]

The circle of battering one self can be depressing. What was the loss?

[gracez]

a conventional "everything" - home, friends, place, occupation, seemingly everything I love. not physical health

[wadingthruemotions]

Originally Posted by gracez

Hi everyone,

I'm wondering what others think about trying to push away emotions when you're depressed.

I'm so upset and anxious most of the time (day in, day out) and can't stand feeling that bad. It's a good thing I'm not into drugs or alcohol, I can see the appeal now! I can't get much good feeling or relief from these emotions nowadays. It's not a simple - take a walk, breathe, sort of thing, though I do try to do these things on occasion.

I find myself trying to spend as much time zoned out as possible, so that I don't have to experience all the upset. Thing is, it's still there, and sometimes so strong that I can't

Thank you

Gracez

Hi there, i can relate a tad. I have BPD and I am bi polar type II with general anxiety. Wonferful, right? (haha sarcasm there)...I often want to escape this crap of roller coaster ride ***** I can't seem to get off of, add to that the flipping irritability factor lately and having to travel soon, I am all over the place ALOT and I can't stand it. I understand how people can go and turn to substances, I really can. I have an addictive streak so i have to watch myself with a lot of things. I am also impulsive. So yes I tend to want to, don't have much luck unless I do stoop back to the only thing that ever made me not care, if not just for a little while just to get through the day.

UGH