[crowfan]

hi,
I am glad to be here and posting how I feel. I've been in bed with my depression for a week. My big stressor is school. A few weeks ago I was put on probation and I cannot attend classes in my program. Basically me and one of my teachers had formed a friendship. From what I have gathered he has complained about me. This came up last Jan. when I asked him about it he said he didn't do this. I believed him which was a big mistake. I only figured this out in May when he complained yet again and I told them that he was denying doing this. At this point I had decided to quit the program and contacted him to say goodbye. Well, even though I had officially notified them that I had quit they put me on probation for the next 2 months. They have since then treated me like a criminal. They met me at one of my classes and barred me from attending. It made me feel like a black child from the 1950's being denied the right to an education. Luckily the 2nd letter putting me on probation allowed me to file an appeal. I feel such a betrayal from my teacher. I don't feel like I have much to live for but I know that is just stinking thinking. I'm amazed how much this experience has shamed and humiliated me. I got a new job and with my depression haven't started it yet. I am going in to work tonight. I feel really isolated, I don't have the friendships I used to have. I should just quit the program but I want to wait and see what happens with the appeal. I had one part of my assistance terminated due to problems with my worker. I set up to do a fair hearing but then I got all this documentation and it just made me feel horrible. So, I cancelled the fair hearing because I just don't feel like I can deal with it. This has helped. I just to need to focus on the future and working through my emotions without getting caught up in the memories. I don't know how to do that but I am going to learn. Thanks for listening.
sophie out

[Thunder Bow]

I don't know the details, but going from how I feel when I am reading this, you are in a nasty situation. My advice is to get out ASAP. from that school and those people. Put some disstance between you and those others. Move away out of town, start fresh, see a Therapist if possible.