I hate myself at the moment. I wish i had never been born.

In fact it would've been even better if my parents were smart enough to realise that their genes didn't need to be passed on. If i were them
i wouldn't have had the balls to try and reproduce.

The end.

[CrimsonBlues]

I'm feeling the same way about myself. I have worked so hard, for so long, to work through all of my problems. I can't help but feel that I have failed at this, no matter how hard I work and how hard I try I can't change the fact that there must be something horrible about me.

I am sorry that you feel this way, Illegal Toilet. I know how devastating it is. I wish I could make everything okay for you.

[jan16th]

Every so often I also get in the self hate mood. I am schizophrenic. It is no fun when the voice and delusions come and I have to really think this crap out as mere voices and delusions. My mother was schizophrenic. She had it a lot worse than me and was really trapped in her mind. When she died, I was happy for her and felt she finally got to see me , explore the universe and time travel. I do not hate her but do hate THE DISEASE that separated us and limited my life. Every morning there is a moment of grieving for having the disease and the losses it has caused. After a cup of strong coffee, it's time to push on with the day. I am forever locked in combat with this disease just as you are with yours. Good Luck.

yes once aggain i am hating myself. wish i was never born

[wife22]

Hi IT
I have episodes when I hate myself and it seems anything I touch becomes spoiled,anything I write is wrong,anything I say is hurtful or sarcastic .
Just know that there are people who care about you and accept you for who you are,even when you are subjectively hating yourself ,they are still on your side,sometimes you have to look at things from the distance and drop subjective self deprecation .
Hang on there ,sun will shine