[McDingiswayo]

Gosh I feel like I am going crazy, my emotions are frustrating me and I just can't handle it. Right now the most dominant emotion of the many that haunt my brain, is pain. I'm in so much pain I feel like my heart is suffocating. Not having control over my own life, emotions, moods and decisions is most probably the worst thing I've ever had to deal with in my life. I feel like I am drowning, and even though I can feel that my hands are above water, I just can't surface. It's like watching your life through a glass, you know what's happening but you have no power over it. How do people cope with this, how do you manage to keep going when nothing looks like it will ever get better? The pain in my heart is enough to feed the whole world if it was turned to food, and most of it is because of the poor decisions I have made, and knowing that I have no power over anything and the thought of having to live my whole life like this.

[Thunder Bow]

I have said this before in this forum, to those who feel powerless in their lives.:

You need to have a Crisis Warrior working for you . One who will solve your problems and protect you. This Warrior will see that you have more Control in your life. I can not give a Link here or a 800 number, ForThat Warrior Is You!