Hello. I'm new here, but I have been reading the forums for a while, now. I am finally getting help with my mental health, after several years. As of now, I know I have - at least - two diagnoses (GAD and depression). I, also, have all of the symptoms of Avoidant Personality Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, and Dependent Personality Disorder... So, obviously, my personality is "disordered". I just thought I'd give you a little background information regarding myself. My closest friends have always been male. In order to feel safe with someone emotionally and mentally, I have to feel safe physically. I generally do not seek out friendships. They are extremely stressful, so I've not really had a close friend since I was twelve - online excluded. The issue I'm addressing in this post is the problem of seeming to be too close to my friends. Admittedly, I generally have two people - a love interest and a best friend. My fiance and I broke-up in June. So, we are still close, and I have a friend. However, my feelings confuse me. I get very close to my friends, becoming extremely attached and worried, and my moods become almost dependent upon them. I suppose I am just looking for someone to say that they experience this, too, or to tell me that my emotions are so screwed up that I don't even know when I'm in love... And, right now, I honestly don't know what's happening, and I'm terrified. This is common for me, but it's more extreme, now... Someone, please, give me some advice/comments? Thank you!
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