[HopelessInsomniac]

I just made an account on this site to ask for advice for my problems. One problem I've had for a while is concerning to me, but I'm afraid to ask for help. I have these moments where all I can feel is blinding anger, usually directed at someone. I want to hurt them severely, and cause them great amounts of pain. Usually when I'm in the mind set, I get a euphoric feeling in my chest making me feel light hearted. It's just scary how violent my thoughts can get, and I don't want to hurt anyone. It's after these moments pass, and it doesn't last for long, a few seconds at most, but I feel a huge energy drain and almost need to rest. Does this happen to anyone else or am I the only one? I've tried talking about it to my friend, but she brushed it off completely.

[lacerta]

I do get really angry and have really violent thoughts during my bipolar mixed episodes.
I have never spoken any of this to my friends, I think it would be too much for them.
Though I do speak about it to my p-doc and therapist and receive the support I need to deal with this.

[Mikeyboy]

I experience rage like this as well, and have very violent, vengeful impulses and fantasies. I am in therapy, and freely share these things with my therapist, who helps me learn to deal with them.

I would say, don't be afraid to ask for help from a professional if you feel it is needed.

I have definitely felt that way many a time! I have fantasized about being a serial killer, even thought about who I would choose to torture and kill. I used to feel guilty for thinking about such things, but now I recognize that my anger is telling me something and I need to listen. And as long as the thoughts remain a fantasy, as long as you do not act on your thoughts, you're not hurting anyone.